June 1996

Tuesday 25^th June

Debbie made up with me on Monday. I think Katy had been talking to her.  Should I say sorry to Louise?  Or should Debbie?  Is it right that Debbie said that Louise is just being stubborn, or am I?  Or even both of us? 

Should I be going around with Andy (friend and ex-boyfriend / my first boyfriend)?  Should I leave him and Taryn to it?  Should we be meeting him?  Should Taryn (church friend) be coming full stop?  Shall I do what Chrissy said and not see Andy for ages and see if he falls for it?  Should I like / fancy him?  Is Taryn stupid in picking fights?  Was right to keep quiet? Have I failed or done the right thing with Debbie?  What about Louise?  Should I dump Taryn?  Is it the right thing a Christian should do?  Please give me some answers soon.  I’m not sure where I stand.  Yours truly, you’re my Saviour. 

Tired and confused ramblings of a teenager just turned 14.  The complications and bitchyness of school fallouts coming to a head.  I can’t actually remember what this argument was about, but it was important at the time!  Also here I am debating whether to get back with an ex-boyfriend or whether another friend fancies him. 

Wednesday 26^th June

Not much happened today.  England are out of Euro ’96.  School 7 days this week.  Groan, dancing tomorrow, RS – brill, PSE – boring.  As I said not much happened, so there’s not much to write.  Bye yours truly. 

Thursday 27^th June

Not much happened.  It’s not much different when I’m friends with Debbie and when I am not.  She still teases me it still hurts.  I was annoyed that I couldn’t go and get my party food.  It’s my party tomorrow.  Bye. 

Saturday 29^th June

Hi!  I didn’t write yesterday because of my sleep over.  Some bits went really well.  But I can’t believe what Taryn did.  How could she do something so stupid?  I’m really embarrassed.  I never want to see Andy’s mum again just out of embarrassment.  Saturday was an ok day.  School fete was a bit cold but all right.  I died of tiredness at dancing.  YL was cool as usual.  Church tomorrow.  If Taryn comes fine if she doesn’t I’m not bothered, drama rehearsal at school tomorrow.  Bye. 

I’m trying to remember what happened at my 16^th birthday that was so embarrassing.  I’m guessing that Taryn kissed Andy in front of his mum or said something embarrassing to or about Andy in front of his mum.